Friday, February 8, 2008

Candy Cane

I dreamt i was in a small town,it was snowing. There were American Indians there on horseback. For some reason we were fighting them, in a sense, more like a stand off. It was cold, and we were hungry. A young indian warrior came over and opened up his jacket and took out some jerky that was hanging on a coat hanger and gave it to us. I remember thinking how wonderful it tasted, as I walked away up the hill, into another stage of the dream.

I was downtown in a big city with someone. They were showing me around different sights. All of the sudden I had in my hand a huge candy cane that was green and red. I was thinking to myself, there is no way i can carry this and eat my jerky at the same time, so i folded it up and put it in my pocket.

thats all I can remember.

Thursday, February 7, 2008


Last night for a brief amount of time I dreamt I was in prison. I remember it starting when I was in the lunchroom. I looked around and realized I was wearing a grey suit, and in a room full of men and women. I thought I couldn't be in prison, as there were men and women in the same room.

After eating, I was distributing mail. I came across a catalog that was describing all kinds of mechanical body alterations/manipulations. It was so horrific and abstract I got scared. (What was my mind thinking in seeing this in my mind?) I immediately dropped that in the trash, and refused to distribute it. (I am feeling sick to my stomach thinking about it.)

After this episode, I went to the shower. The shower had a window in the front of it, and everyone could see me. I kept trying to close the curtain, but was having difficulty. While in there I saw some of the inmates going through the things in my room, but i couldn't get out in time to stop them. When I finally got back to my room, an inmate came in and was attempting to rape me. I remember saying to him, you are nothing, you mean nothing and what you are doing is nothing. I will not be affected by you in any way. This seemed to have worked. He left.

Then I woke up with that horrific images from the catalog, wondering where the hell my mind was going with that one.

more sleep or less. I can't figure it out. damn depression.

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Dreams are Back

So part of my dream last night? Another party scene. On a grassy hill... Balloons everywhere, and string.

I don't remember much but the end of the dream was a group of guys sitting in my driveway in a Van, talking about growing up and surfing.

Monday, February 4, 2008

breaking in

Last night I feel asleep early, and I started dreaming about someone that was trying to break into my apt. For a while. He was pounding on the door. He had on a denim shirt and a red striped tie. I don't even know that he wasn't trying to help me out, because he didn't seem threatening. He seemed more concerned than wanting to hurt me. He even asked the neighbor for a key. But I was terrified about him entering the house. Brown hair, brown eyes... I don't know why I was scared. But it was one of those dreams where you can't move or speak. I woke myself up and I was screaming.

I couldn't go back to sleep. And I couldn't think about it anymore that night.