Hotel Mud

we went to the hair salon to get my son's hair cut, they were super busy. I had left austin in the car. After talking to rhe receptionist, who wasn't paying attention to me because she was drawing minions on paper, i was super upset, and told her I was going to tell the owner what a shitty job she was doing, walked to the car. I saw a suspicious man sitting by the car watching my son. Government uniform, government plates. he drove off as soon as I saw him. I asked my son who it was, he didn't even know he was there. We headed back to the hotel where we were staying.

for some reason we were there with a man (my son and I). He was someone i could trust, and was protective of me. He had knowledge of the government and how it worked. In my dream it was captain america... In the "story" we had been friends a long time and I was helping him out by letting him be there with us, he seemed lonely. We were all laying down trying to sleep.. and he held out his hand, and we held hands for a good while. Then, when I kissed his hand, he moved away from me and wrapped himself up in a sheet. After I reached out in a different way, then again he was receptive to being there. I think this represents someone I know.

After we woke up, my son was going to school, he got a ride from someone. a lady in an older car with a LOT of other kids in it. I wasn't sure but he went anyway. across from the hotel was a nature preserve with horses and things in it. I walked across the street to dump so kitty pellets into the ravine, and as i got closer i noticed that the  horses were drinking water. then I noticed one geting stuck in the mud... i knew I couldn't help it, but as i walked around there I got stuck in the mud and couldn't barely get out! I had to use the tin bucket to help dig and pull my way out of the mud, up a hill. As I walked back across the wood crates set up, so I wouldn't get stuck in the mud again, I heard a message about auto insurance playing in my head... then I woke up.

I woke up wondering who captain america was, and thinking I think my insurance payment is due today. ha!
! yea.. giggle.

Warehouse

I used to dream about warehouses a LOT when I lived in one. Haven't in a while. I miss that open feeling of being in a warehouse. Before the warehouse I was visiting a town, we had double-decker buses and fountains and such.

Last night it went from military storage to abandoned bed after bed after bed with worn-out quilts, to a horse auction, to a black and white photoshoot, on which I was assisting, and being called on for art direction. Complete with Shaman, incense, and roses.

And it was daytime during the entire thing. Thank you DREAMS! So glad to see you again. :)

re awakening

dreams are starting to be more meaningful again.

Last night i dreamt of a long long conversation with my friend. we were talking about missed opportunities and white lies... why we stood people up on dates and what we told them when we did!

I was looking at laundry when I was folding this up. I woke up promptly at that point. Wondering, who is calling me? and not in a sense of on the phone, but someone was reaching for me. this happens some to me.

:)

Drunk

Last night I dreamt about going out and getting drunk! I mean I didn't go out to specifically get drunk. I was out around town and was in a bar. It wasn't even a celebration, but someone offered me a drink and I took it. more than one.

Then the next day I went to a meeting and confessed. I have to say that my share was pretty epic. i had to close my eyes to do it, at the end of this share, I opened them and there was no one in the room. I felt very angry that no one wanted to sit and hear my story.

I opened the door to go outside and it seems the power had gone off, then come back on but they didn't know this. I ended up thinking I really need to get home because my son was there alone.

Many MANY other things happened in this dream. These are the things I remember. I woke up and ate a handful of candy... I am on a STRICT diet and did that. Its the equivalent of getting drunk for me right now. NOT good.

I am so grateful to be having this experience of re-learning my body and my life. I send my request to the universe to remain involved in my life and not apathetic and isolated.

Amazing

I have had the most amazing dreams this week! The orca dream you can find on my blog, not just nouns and verbs.

Last nights dream i will only relay one part... i was a part of an indian tribe, but was outcast because of something i had done. I went into the river to hide from the persecutors, and held my breath. It was dusk and turning into night, so it was easier to remain hidden in the shadows. How amazing to feel things while you are sleeping and dreaming! I was underwater and could breath, so unreal. As i hid behind a submerged tree, i saw the others wandering around in the water looking for me, shooting into the water hoping to hit something. I turned around to see a dead bear laying on the bottom of this creek. I moved behind it to hide and rise for a breath so they wouldn't see me.

At some point i had held my breath so long that I had passed out. When i woke i was in a tank in some kind of water recycling facility! (dreams are so unreal) and the room i was in was filling to the top with this water. I had to swim over to the window to let the men know i was in this tank! They drained the room immediately and then came to the door. Thats when I woke up. It was the oddest feeling being in that room though, it was like I was "out of time" or had traveled to a different dimension than where i was as the "indian woman".

I don't have any clues to what dreams mean. Its fun just to watch them like a movie every night! Thankfully i feel rested when i wake up instead of worn out. What are your dreams?

The Boat

This morning in part of my dream, I was in a boat with 4 or 5 other people most of them women. I was the one working. Somehow I got off the boat, but the guy pulled up beside me saying, ok i am going to drop a kayak and you can start climbing up. I will help you.

I climbed into this boat thinking he was going to pull me up. insteand it was a succession of kayaks tied together with canvas straps,  I ended up having to climb each one of these and he would pull me up to the next one slowly.

By the time I got to the top boat, i was basically climbing into this yacht on my own. There were other women there saying YEA you made it! As i looked around the room everyone was packing up, and things were a mess. It was like i had missed somekind of big party, and was only there forthe clean up.

There was another man there sitting by the computer. He had a candle that i had made him burning. I looked down and saw it, saying to him, this looks familiar. He said, yes. you made that for me. I have been keeping it going ever since. He wasn't overly affectionate or even too excited to see me, but I knew he had some kind of sentimental attachment to me, friendship? Couldn't get a proper feel about it.

The end of the dream is blurry at this point. i didn't feel too much welcoming energy from the males of this dream and the females were all my good friends we were working together. i am tired just thinking about it. Wasn't too restful. 

Vivid

My dreams have a clarity that astounds me when i wake from them.

New ritual is to make sure to record them each day. coffee and dream log/writing.