All NIght

I had nightmares. And I woke up very couple of hours. NOw I am exhausted. I think today is going to be a very long one.

for fifteen minutes

I fell asleep. I was driving. My sister all of the sudden was in the car, and she got out, while the car was moving. I had to figure out how to get out of a car, going down a hill and get in the drivers seat to drive the car.

When Idid that, i got around the corner, and parked the car. Was talking on the phone for a minute, then someone approached the car, and I got paranoid, and drove off. Came around the corner and bumped another car, sending it spinning down the road. It was like a slow motion wreck. I woke myself up from this 15 min nap.

Now I can't go back to sleep. sighs. more tomorrow.

they really flowed

this weekend, I can't remember any of it today. nada.

will keep you posted.

Accidental Tourist

Ok. I had wandered to a place as a tourist. It was a society of people, I was there to help with some kind of repairs. Of course I can't remember what the repairs were about. I was with a team, but I was the only woman. For some reason I got separated from the others, and that is always when it gets weird right?

This was a semi religious community. The women were subservient. They had chores to do, and were a valid part of the society. But they were subjected to some seriously degrading things as well, that I won't go into here. I remember having to come up with excuses for why I didn't have to participate in these activities. I came across a few of the men that found this kind of treatment appalling, and were trying to figure out how to change things. In a particular scene, I remember one of the men spilling some of the water, and when another of these men walked by, he sank into the carpet and was stuck. That was a particularly strong image.

I am having a hard time remembering the rest of it. I woke up thinking, there is something wrong with me. Why do I feel so singled out and put upon? Geez...

Something is probably going to happen today that will bring this into a more clear focus for me. I really hope so.

clarity

Last night I was in that place between waking and sleep. and I was seeing underwater images as clear as if they were on TV. Most of the time my dreams are fuzzy, like I am seeing without my glasses. I remember thinking, look how clear this is!

Too bad it wasn't about lottery numbers or buried treasure. But If i could capture images that well, i wouldn't have to worry about money.

more to come.

Filming Water

I had a dream that I was in my house, and had a group of friends over. We were planning a trip to a theme park, and everyone was there. I was trying to round some things up before leaving the house, because the maids were coming to clean. Nice Mediterranean home, furnished, and everyone was having drinks. The maids showed up and were two spanish girls that were very friendly. And they were giggling and tellin me what needed to be done. Before we left they were already turning up the stereo, and dancing around with brooms.

We were leaving to go to the beach or park, and I was talking to someone that filming the event. We were laughing and enjoying each other getting along fine, but for some reason, I couldn't talk to him further because of another friend. Then there was another film maker. He and I were talking about the technical aspects of what we were going to film.

We get to the water park, and one of my friends is shunning me. Like she is totally embarrased by me. I am confused as to why this is happening. And then everyone else wanders off and isn't talking to me. Weird midgets appear again, and then I woke up.

man. I had a really bad feeling about this when I woke up. someone in my life is not being honest with me. And its affecting the people around it. I also think there is some kind of bad feeling I have about some of my friends. One in particular. She is not the person I thought she was. But that is not my problem, my problem is that it is hurting my feelings. I am letting it hurt my feelings.

dreams are weird.

Garden

I was having this really nice dream about people and developing some ideas, going places. But at the end of the dream, there was a man that had some experiments he wanted to show me. And some things buried in the garden that he was trying to get rid of.

So we were standing there and he digs up this vile with a bug in it. I was kicking around in the dirt, and a millipede crawled out of the test tube, and it started climbing under my big toe. I was shaking and shaking to get it off, but I couldn't. Then I woke myself up out of fear. Unfortunately that was the last vision and I couldn't remember the good parts of this dream.

stupid head. what am i thinking about? Am I ruining my chances by stirring up some dirt?